stalker!

sometimes i hate her. she's so rude and inconsiderate but she gets all upset when someone looks at her fucking crosseyed.
stef and i have been friends since we were like 5.
just cause that bitch lives closer to her does not make it ok for her to make me feel like the third wheel.
it is not. oh. kay.
i fucking miss her.
it doesn't matter even when she's sitting right next to me, i still miss her.
she's not the same, somethings differant and i hate it.
and ben's pulling at her.
she's getting farther and father away from me and it's his fault.
i can talk to her on the internet for hours and we'll be just fine but as soon as one of them are around i can feel the pull, i can feel the ever growing gap.
it hurts.

i am wide awake and the ticking of the clock is reverberating through my bones
each tick reminds me why i cannot sleep
tick. she's gone
tick. he's there
tick. i'm falling
tick. tick. tick.
someone save me.
come and save me from my own personal hell.
i relied on you and now you are not there.