and Peter learned to love...

and Peter learned to love...

Thursday, January 31, 2008

love at first note

so stef and i just had a conversation about love.
she sent me something that she wrote a few years ago about the meaning of love and i agreed with her 100% so i told her that i agreed and that i loved her. she said: lol, nice. ily2
in my opinion, ily is not the same as i love you.
it's a cheapened, substitute that basically means i like you strongly but i don't love you.
or maybe 'omg you're awesome'
just like i love you is not the same as i'm in love with you.
cause you can love your mom but you aren't in love with her.
being in love with someone is a whole other bucket of fish.
it comes with differant emotions, differant fears and insecurities.
so no stef, you don't love me. but i think i knew that.
maybe i understand, but that doesn't mean i'm ok with it.
why don't you love me?
is there something i could do differantly to make you love me?
cause i'd do anything.
maybe i'm crazy, but isn't that what love is?
i wish i could tell you this, but i'm afraid.
i'd rather live like this, where maybe you don't love me, but you don't hate me at least, then have to live without you.

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