heartstrings

my sister (who apparently no longer hates me) is in the shower and has the radio on loud, so when Sugar, We're Going Down came on i could hear it quite well. naturally i started to sing along but when it got to the part where the music quiets down a tad and Patrick sings 'Drop a heart, break a name' i felt like someone had just ripped my heart out. it shot me back to sophmore year so fast my head was spinning. you can't imagine the memories that can be attached to a single song. I saw Joelle (when she was still going to school) all happy and singing along, i saw Stef right there next to her, both of them singing their hearts out cause dude, this is the most awesome song ever, how can you not wanna sing with Patrick? and i saw Nick, before he was an asshole, before i fucked it up, dancing with somebody else that night at homecoming right before i had to leave or risk making a total fool out of myself. I miss it. i miss what i was before i screwed up. i miss being happy.