wtf???

there's a rumor that Pete and Ashlee are engaged and she announced it on the Sauce.
i can find no record of it.
therefore i choose not to believe it.

what i ate today:
curly fries
salad with French dressing and sunflower seeds
fruit and tofu smoothie
bagel with refried beans and hummus
rice and tofu/vegetable stirfry
tortilla with refried beans, hummus, and salsa.

i'm a pig.
i really need to stop eating at school.
i'm bringing leftover stirfry for lunch tomorrow.
i shouldn't have eaten the bagel or the fries today.
that would have been better.

i borrowed cd's from Sam so now i have both Paramore cd's
i was so exausted i was falling asleep while reading at 7 and now it's 2:30 and i'm fine.
i don't understand.

Tasha and i were talking about tattoos on the bus today.
my first tattoo will either be a circle of Tim Burton bats around my ankle or
"the best part of believe is the lie" around my right wrist.
after that it'll be a free for all lol
i want:
two bass clef's arranged in the shape of a heart on the inside of my left wrist with a bar of music from a Fall Out Boy song finishing the circle around my wrist
a spider web with a nautical star in the middle
something Jack and Sally related
a cresant moon facing to the right with a star in the center on my ankle
a cobra wrapped around my upper right arm with Cobra Starship written into the scales
the keyhole design from From Under The Cork Tree
a bartskull/clandestine bat
2*2R on my left side above my hip with a nightsky background
vampire bat on left shoulder
wings on back
(and more to come)
i'm going to wait for stef to turn 18 so we can get our first tattoos together.

somedays i feel like she's just my best friend and we'll always be just like we are now only with the edition of S.O.'s and children and somedays it feels like so much more. those are the days when it feels short term, like everything right and happy with the world is going to end. or at least sometimes, sometimes they feel ok.

Sarah got her cell phone and we've been texting almost constantly since Monday night.

omg monday night.
i spent the night at stef's and i've never felt like life was so perfect before. we were happy, both of us. we watched the FOB dvd's and fangirled over every little thing and i dyed her hair and we were goofy and just, happy. i wish everyday was like that.
maybe when we move away from all the people who drag us down our lives will be like that all the time. i really hope so. and i hope she was as happy that day as i was.