on letting go

i can't think of anything to write yet but i'm sure that i'll think of something.
i'm never free of things to rant about.
i haven't talked to stefani since friday.
i miss her. but hate that i do.
2 days and i already miss her.

i'm working on a story.
i'm not going to post it until i'm finished though.
maybe i'll actually finish this one.
it's about a girls battle with anorexia.
maybe it's about my battle with anorexia, but this girl will get it right.
she'll loose the weight.
maybe she'll loose to much, but she'll loose it.
and eventually someone will make her feel beautiful and she'll get better.
i wish that would happen to me.
i want to know what beautiful feels like.
i want to know what loved feels like.