*ded*

Noah asked me out.

i can't even formulate the words to describe what i'm feeling.

i want to say yes. i honestly do.

but it's not fair to him. because i'm in love with Stefani.

and i hate myself for that. i was presented a chance to escape and i blew it by telling him.

not everything. just that it wouldn't be fair to him because i was in love with someone who can never love me back.

god fucking damn it!

i hate myself so much right now.

i mean, it's like, someone likes me, for me. and i can't even accept that. if i can't just take that for what it is, than where am i headed? what is my life going to be like if i can't let myself live?

i see this ending either really well, or really really really bad.

someone put me out of my misery.