new years

part of me loves the thought of getting a new start. kind of like a clean slate with notes off to the side. and part of me is terrified that things aren't going to get better. if they way i'm spending new years eve is any indication 2009 is gonna blow.

stefani's pm and sn on messenger keep getting more and more confusing. i refuse to let myself get my hopes up. today's says: [[Watching you... wanting you...]] don't you... forget about me?

and it's like, what the hell. either she's still hung up on Mike (which would seriously piss me off) or... i don't even know. or i want to think i know but won't let myself. something like that.

TOP 5 IN 2008:

1. Fall Out Boy's new cd. Fall Out Boy in general.

2. The Panic Concert (yes, it gets caps.)

3. Barack Obama (nuff said)

4. Chicago. oh how i miss you.

5. Graduating.



TOP (HOPEFUL) 5 IN 2009:

1. my band. just, anything happening there would be great.

2. i wanna meet someone i look up to. like Pete Wentz.

3. independance (read: apartment)

4. more Chicago. please.

5. youtube. like, really.