and Peter learned to love...

and Peter learned to love...

Monday, April 7, 2008

young and depressed

the plan was always for stef and i to move in together.
for a little while i was beginning to think she wanted rid of me altogether.
now she's talking about taking care of her dad.
she thinks it would be cool for us to get apartments in the same building.
maybe she doesn't hate me.

the thing that's always bugged me, is im always the one coming up with the plans in this relationship. if i left it up to her we'd never spend any time together.

sometimes thinking about her makes me cry, even when i'm happy.

i feel blank a lot lately. i want to cut but i haven't. for me this is a sign that i'm weak. why.

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