Bittersweet

i'm trying to find the best way
to tell you how much it hurts
and never say a thing
you've always been the best and the worst for me
if you looked behind you you'd see me
i'm waiting, and i always will

on the outside nothing has changed
we're the same as we always were
but on the inside i am not who i was yesterday
and i'm dying to know if you've changed too

i'm not afraid to be me
around anyone but you
do you hate that too
i'll never see you the way you want me to
but niether will you see me
i'm waiting, even though i shouldn't be

i will never be too far
but never as close
as i'll wish i was
open your arms and i'll be there to fall
i'd love to catch you if you slip
i'm waiting, and i'll never stop