you know what i hate?

stef and i "got married" on December 21st

and yet she's always joking around about being married to other people which i'm fine with except when i say "hey, you married me first" she always finds some way to blow it off, like when we "got married" it didn't even mean anything.

and i know it's not for real or whatever, we were just plying around but, it still means a lot to me. it hurts when she makes it seem like nothing. it's like she's telling me our friendship doesn't mean anything to her.