chorus romance says goodnight

in July i'm going to Chicago to do a summer program at the college i want to go to.

i told stefani and at first she seemed like she cared but idk, it's almost like it doesn't bother her at all that i'm going to be in another state for a month. if she was the one that told me that she was leaving i'd be upset, i'd tell her how much i'm going to miss her, i'd make plans to go see her. but she... she just blew it off kinda.

and today during rake day she abandoned me to hang out with Mike, well sorta, at first she was alone, and then she was with Mike. i hate him so much, i feel like he's taking her from me. again. if she would just show that she cared once maybe i wouldn't be so insecure but she always seems so indifferant and that kills me.

do i talk about myself too much? i complain about Michelle doing it all the time but what if i do it too? i don't want to sound like a hypocrite... i'm going to try not to talk as much from now on. it'll be good for me, i need to be less obnoxious, more withdrawn. being an introvert never hurt anyone.