i'm just so tired of it all

i'm the only one who can't sing to you
cause hey, you might take it the wrong way
and i'm too chicken shit to tell you how i feel
there's this one song that makes me laugh
but if i told you you might scream and run
i'm the only one who's not allowed to sing to you


you've got plans and i've got dreams
and hey, at least yours are realistic
mine make people laugh and say yeah, sure, whatever
the only thing i can find wrong with yours
is how they seem to be so completely void of... me
i wish you could see how much i need you

can i keep my eyes closed until it's all over

i'm afraid to open them and find out that you're gone

would you hold me if i asked you to

chicago i love you

omg chicago is amazing. i'd kill to live here forever!!!

Aunt Wendy keeps telling me how "beautiful" i am.

i wish she would stop.

it's not good to lie to people.

i think i'm loosing weight?

i keep forgetting to weigh myself.

i got my snakebites done.

everyone says they're awesome so that's good.

i miss Stefani so god damn much.

she misses me too though which makes it a little better for some reason.

she told me she loved me in a goodnight text.

it made me smile and i've been in a good mood ever since.

i feel better here than i do at home.

less stress and negativity i suppose.